Taking Notice

So, I had left the Jarvis Hall Fine Art Gallery and was walking back to my van parked some distance away.  The walk took me along some side streets.  That’s when I landed myself into the middle of one of those amazing moments…the kind when you say to yourself…”Wow…am I ever blessed!”  Autumn leaves were crunching under my feet.  Arms of giant trees reached up to a blue sky.  The air was filled up with the season.  I paused and took this picture.

P1130870I hope that when I look at this photograph, I will remember the magic of that moment of realization.

This morning, still dressed in my flannel nightgown, I looked out the windows and had the same experience, but over entirely different weather and situation.  I had slept in.  My head was filled with thoughts of what I ‘should’ be doing. Everything seemed to have been transformed over night.

I was profoundly touched, remembering the hours of pleasure I’ve enjoyed, watching the birds filling up ravenously at the feeder these past weeks.  Now, to see my little friends out in the snow, I wondered just how they manage to get through the winters.  I saw their beauty, as though for the first time.

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Some time later, Max and I headed out into the weather.  Remembering that I am living with a herding dog, I got him over to the pond for a good bit of exercise.  We were all alone. Everything was beautiful.  The ducks, dark boats on dark water…the sky white…the vegetation white…the wind, biting…the only sound, crunch of my feet on the stones and snow.  Max ran hard, playing and eating snow as we went.  I caught myself laughing out loud.

After circling the pond and heading back, I gave one big throw of his Frisbee and watched as the wind carried the thing up high, down past the tall ant hills and into the cat tails by the pond’s edge.  “Max!  Max!  No, boy…LEAVE IT!”  I saw the bull rushes moving and knew that my determined pooch was going to go into the pond, come hell or high water!  Sure enough, a very wet border collie came bounding toward me, proud as punch that he had retrieved the old and mucky toy.

We headed back to the van at lightening speed, Max carrying the muddied toy; both were icicles upon our arrival to the parking lot.  Into the kennel he flew, whining and whimpering.  I thought to myself…these are the daily occurrences that my readers rarely encounter on my blog…

I take pause and make note of that particular moment of realization.  Recently, what I’ve discovered, more than anything, is the blessing in the ordinary experiences of my days.  I am a blessed lady.

Beef Barley Soup...Always good for a wintry day.

Beef Barley Soup…Always good for a wintry day.

Common Redpoll

It was an icy cold day with the sort of cold that wound its way under my skin and into my bones.  Even before heading out, I felt a shiver…with the windchill, the temperature sat at -24 degrees.   I had noticed the visitor to the feeder before taking Max for his afternoon walk to the pond.  A Common Redpoll was diligently exploring one corner of the front yard feeder and even with the opening and closing of the door and the movement around the van, it remained….surprisingly, waiting for our return over an hour later.  A wonderful sight, the tiny bird, one of the finch family, warmed up the day with its small, but powerful, presence.

Emily Dickinson

“Hope” is the thing with feathers —
That perches in the soul —
And sings the tune without the words —
And never stops — at all —

And sweetest — in the Gale — is heard —
And sore must be the storm —
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm —

I’ve heard it in the chillest land —
And on the strangest Sea —
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb — of Me.

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Photo Credit: animals.nationalgeographic.com

Photo Credit: animals.nationalgeographic.com

Allen Sapp Skies

I met Allen as we shared an opening at the West End Galleries Ltd. in Edmonton, Alberta sometime early 1990s.  We sat together in the back space of the gallery.  He ate broccoli and dip…wore a big black cowboy hat and crossed his legs…I remember that part because he wore awesome cowboy boots and they were most evident with the gesture.  We shared few words, but the few we shared, will be forever cherished by me.  He gave me encouragement about my process and what I was doing.  He struck me as humble.  He didn’t look at my face.

Last evening, the skies were Allen Sapp skies.  Those of you who know his winter paintings of the open plains, know the skies that I write about.  It was magical watching the muskrats dip into the icy waters as I walked by the small dark circle remaining open on a white frozen pond.  A coyote loped over an embankment, mere feet from Max and I… the sky seemed to be painted in watercolour and the world was bathed in that soft yellow-pink light of a winter evening.

Allen Sapp

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Winter Birds

Grade one students created these winter birds twittering through birch tree branches.  It was an awesome experience watching such young children create, challenge and explore.  Credit is given to this site for their fantastic idea.  This activity would typically be geared toward a grade four, five or six class…but, heh…what the heck!  Young children are so absolutely fearless. Their marks and use of colour, innate.

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Every December Sky

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The calendar page turned…and it was December.  On December 2, 1979…I married.  The marriage, like snow on December trees, disappeared.  I am always and forever in a state of acceptance because my life did not turn out as I had planned or how I had predicted it would be.  I strive to practice happiness, however…to create daily, an experience of the full spectrum of emotion…even if that happiness is aroused out of the humming of an Advent tune on a sad day or the flow of purple satin under the nativity set on a frustrating day.  Somewhere, I find it.

Winter in the Garden

Calgary is getting slammed with winter, as is most of Alberta.  I’ve enjoyed holding up, watching things happening outside…the frenzy at the bird feeders and the sparkle of changing light on snow.  It’s been a beautiful retreat.

 

This Morning In the Garden

Before attending karate last evening, I managed to get the garden implements tucked away in the shed and pulled out the snow shovels.  I also hung four strings of white sparkle lights into the arms of May, for some winter light in the back yard gardens.  This morning, however, I didn’t feel like walking through the 8 cm blanket of snow, in order to plug them in.  I’m opting to stay home this morning while so many others don’t have that choice.  I feel blessed that on a morning like this, I can put on the coffee and stay warm and off those roads!

The Snowbound City

By John Haines

I believe in this stalled magnificence,
this churning chaos of traffic,
a beast with broken spine,
its hoarse voice hooded in feathers
and mist; the baffled eyes
wink amber and slowly darken.

Of men and women suddenly walking,
tumbling with little sleighs
in search of Tibetan houses —
dust from a far-off mountain
already whitens their shoulders.

When evening falls in blurred heaps,
a man losing his way among churches
and schoolyards feels under his cold hand
the stone thoughts of that city,

impassable to all but a few children
who went on into the hidden life
of caves and winter fires,
their faces glowing with disaster.

Kathleen’s Back Yard

Doug’s Front Yard

 

Cleaning Out the Gardens

There was some rain last night.  Everything is a little damp this afternoon in the garden.  I’m putting on my gloves and digging in…turning soil…adding peat moss, readying the gardens for a white blanket of snow.  I will leave some plants where dollops of snow mound and make for frozen beauty.  I will hang white lights in May, so that her branches sparkle through the icy cold of January and February.

Dad recommended that I hang the heads of the sunflowers for the birds to feed upon.  I’m going to move the mint to the side of the studio as a deterrent to mice.  I know!  Mint spreads like crazy…but in that narrow wee space, a spread will be good!  I’m turning the soil…harvesting the last of the carrots.  It’s a perfect fall day for doing such activities, but there’s a bit of sadness as well…as I say good-bye to the colours of autumn.

Mint roots are lookin’ good for the planting.

CBC radio played this tune, while Max and I were on our way to the off leash park this morning.  The lyrics are taking a journey through my mind…my heart…beautiful poetry and gut emotion.  I’d love to travel to Oregon to hear this three piece band, Jerry Joseph and the Jackmormons, play.  Amazing.

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I can see them marching to the sea
Rock of Ages, zero history
They will lay their roses on the trail
They will drag their Jonah from the whale
They will offer up the Devil’s choice
They will sing hosannas with one voice

She will come and bear the golden child
He will light the darkness with his smile
They will offer fire and silver bowls
He will breathe the spirits in his soul
He will lay on hearts with healing hands
He will kneel before the Queen of Man

Radio cab
Pulling away
I don’t want you to go
I want you to stay
I have seen you curled up on the floor
Wishing it was what it was before
I have made a promise on a book
Wrapped up in your blankets while I shook
Reaper, lover, warrior, hero, friend
Swear you’ll stand beside me ’til the end

Radio cab
Pulling away
I don’t want you to go
I want you to stay
Radio cab
Permanent waves
Taking you home
Keeping you safe
Radio cab

Tell your tales of blood and sex and steel
Barefoot on the coals to make it real
Place your fingers right into my wounds
Call my name and howl it at the moon
Swear I’m going to love you ’til I die
Swear you’re going to love me ’til I die

Radio cab
Pulling away
I don’t want you to go
I want you to stay
Radio cab
Radio waves
Taking you home
Keeping you safe
Radio cab

Changing the Landscape: One Bag at a Time

Monday, March 5, 2012 3:45 p.m. -4 degrees  Everything is white outside…swirling…cold.  My gloves got wet with the garbage I picked up today and so my fingers became stiff as I worked.  I tucked them up into the hand of the gloves.

Snow Man, No More

Max and I spent an hour picking…our findings included a blue flip flop and many bits of fast food packaging, in fact, a whole bag full!  Yesterday’s snowman had been destroyed, but the great news is that the six bags I had left at the bin previously, have been taken away!

Thank you.

A gent from the parking lot had just finished up adding oil to his vehicle…he was cold…I didn’t grab his name, but he DID agree to snap our archival photograph.

Max-Man and Moi

The thing about this project is that, looking from a distance, the garbage is hidden.  Looking close-up, the water’s edge is loaded with plastics and bits of discarded packaging.  The grass is entangled in long strips of plastic sheeting and grocery bags.  Our perceptions of things can cause us to go on ignoring the filth and the destruction of our environment.  It’s time for each person to take the time to really see.

I try to leave out the parts that people skip. Elmore Leonard

A New Week

What I Do When I’m Not Searching For P. Mason OR Writing About Searching For Him

I came home from a day of teaching grade eight social studies (Yes…sometimes I am a guest teacher!  Yesterday I watched, four times over, a late 90s film on Latitude and Longitude.  I feel now that I’ve learned a lot that I hadn’t previously learned in my own schooling.  I often feel that way about teaching.  I’m going to have to remember to ask my brother who is in the Canadian Navy more about a sextant though.  In fact, I’d like to hold a sextant in my hands because then I truly think it will make more sense.  I’m amazed really, thinking about the early nautical travelers, setting out onto the ocean, not REALLY able to sort out where they were.  Huge risk, I say!  But…this has been a digression, yet again!) 

When I arrived home from teaching yesterday, my entire front yard was covered in a fresh blanket of snow.  Clearly, there was a footprint-story to be told in the crisp white surface.  There were no people-prints adjacent, so I excluded the possibility of these being those of a domesticated canine; however,  I am open to the possibility that they were left by a run-away dog. James R. Page does a far more professional job of taking photos of tracks in winter-snow!  I noticed that the footprints circled the place where my birdfeeder used to lose much seed to the ground. (The seed does not fall to the ground here anymore because I have attached a beautiful tray so as to not attract predators.  Now,  the birds do not even feed here anymore!  I jest…there are two neighbourhood chickadees and a couple of finches that are brave enough to tackle the new physical dynamic.   The sparrows line the branches of my front-yard tree and look down, longingly, at the mother-load.)

The footprints.  I have left the autumn vegetation in my gardens as protective structure for the jack rabbits that hang about all winter.  It may be that my visitor to the front yard was looking for sustenance (bunny) on the wintry day.  So, here are my suspicions.  I think that Wiley is still out there!  Yes, our neighbourhood has its own coyote, a male that comes up from the Fish Creek and hangs out in our neighbourhood park.  Recently, I believed that we had lost Wiley.  He has, at least three times, stalked Max and I back to my front doorstep.  In fact, one morning at about 4:00 a.m. Max made a huge commotion and charged up the stairs to the front window.  I followed, alarmed.  There, on my front doorstep, was Wiley, munching enthusiastically into some sort of flesh.  At Max’s reaction, the coyote, nonchalantly, made his way down the street, with ears and body of his prey dangling out of either side of his face.  The last time I made a visual siting though, Wiley was sporting some sort of facial wound.  He looked emaciated and generally, not well.  It’s been a couple of months and still, no Wiley.  Until yesterday?