The Present Moment

Even as I write, the moment has slipped away and I am with another and another, another.  So, what I am really writing about now is a past moment.  I sat eating dinner with a friend in the evening and spoke to him about the magic of the summer.  As I spoke to him about a couple of events/people I had met and spoken to, I realized that we are always exactly where we need to be at the time.  Being fully present to my life (something I always thought I had been doing – but wasn’t) this past two months taught me such joy, acceptance and wonder.  I feel less conflicted, more at peace and more engaged.  This notion sounds totally convoluted, but young Douglas Spaulding of Dandelion Wine would have seen it as a revelation, so as such, I’m going to leave my words without edits so that I can look back and remember the divine mystery that was my realization.

Moments of Inspired Realization

Moments Of Inspired Realization

While standing out in the vast field, having thrown the tennis ball for Max, no less than 50 times (and I’ve decided NOT to exaggerate this number as I do typically), I was standing in the center of the field alone….he was charging toward the ball, when suddenly I felt ‘that’ amazing feeling.  I remember experiencing it as I saw my babies’ hands   for the very first time.  And I would often get it when I walked home from school in North Bay …the sound of crunchy snow under my feet… in the dead of winter, warm sunlight hitting the white snow…my eye lashes coated in delicate ice crystals.  I experienced that feeling when I sat on the black round stones on the beach at Scalea…watching my daughter melt into the mercurial water as the sun set.  I had that feeling this morning.  I felt the sun warm on my hair and the blue sky poured over everything.  Max wore a smile…and I felt utter bliss in the state of pure Divinity in one of those surprising moments of realization.